It's been a while since I made an update post. I figure it's time for another one.

First, I've gotten my muse back with drawing. I don't always feel the need to post what I make in public channels but I do sometimes post things in private to friends and I've rediscovered the joy in creating something. I've been picking up a couple new skills on the side as well, and might have more variety of things to post in future.

Second, and this is a bit less related to my doings as a creator, but I want to talk about it anyway. (And it's my blog so I can do what I want.) I did end up starting a Discord server for board games. It's not big right now, but I like the people who are in it and I enjoy meeting up once a week. However, it mostly has Europeans in it, and our weekly meetup is at 3pm for me. I'd love if more Americans could join up and I can start up another meetup day that's more American timezone friendly.

If you've ever tuned into one of my streams and endured my painfully edgy queer dirtbag-leftist bend and zero tolerance for performative virtue signaling, that's the vibe of the Discord. I also largely play board games about nature and animals, big surprise. Here's the link if anyone wants it: https://discord.gg/aPwNFNT86g

Still a bit of a WIP, since it's only semi-public, but hey.

Third, it's nearing my birthday again (the 11th) which means it's almost time for the annual Spyro stream I do every year. I look forward to this every year and I hope my audience does as well. It's a pretty chill time where I play my favorite game (Spyro the Dragon) from start to finish, 100%, and talk to chat. Sometimes, friends of mine join the call too, though we might have fewer than usual this year.

And finally, building off that last thing: I'm planning on kicking up streaming again, but it's going to be a bit different this time. I'll either talk about it during the birthday stream, or if I stream at all before then, I'll talk about it then. But right now, the plan is to begin my new streaming plans after my birthday stream. I think what I have planned will ultimately be the best thing for me going forward.

This next bit is a summary of some personal things. The content update part of this post has ended.

Last year was hard on me. I won't go into why, but let's say that some things which had been building up since 2019 had finally resulted in exactly the kind of thing I was afraid of, and it took months to recover from. Although, I'd hesitate to call it "recovery," I'd more refer to it as an eventual apathy. It happened. I'll live. Sometimes, you can only endure something until it stops eating at you.

Maybe that's because it ran out of things to eat...

I think spending a couple of months feeling so empty inside gave me a kind of soft-reset, letting me reclaim the sense of self I'd lost in the process of trying to adapt to communities I didn't belong in to begin with, and giving me a new peace with myself about who I am and what I believe.

I remember how to sit alone and feel content.

This has also given me the strength to potentially improve my life. I'll probably always make things online, but my long-term goal is more independence than being a terminally online disabled creator allows, so my output might drop again this year, but this time, it'll be for a good reason.

Take care of yourselves and have a good year. I'll see you in the next stream, or whenever I upload a new image.